2 steps foreward, 3 steps back

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I had a disturbing dream last night. Which in itself isnt that unusual for me.
I woke up crying and shaking and it took a long time to calm down and force myself back into unconsciousness.
What was so upsetting about it was the LACK of the disturbing.
It was too nice.
Too simple.
Too real
More like a memory than a dream and it really shook me to the core.
Why am I having a dream like that? Its not fair! I dont know how to deal with them
Why cant I just slip into the blackness of sleep and awake to the light.
Sleeping isnt meant to be so complex and draining.

4 comments:

Zac said...

C'mon, enjoy a nice, easy dream. Jesus.

Zac said...

*or was it actually not a good dream? I apologize for my lack of sensitivity ifso.

>_ said...

No it wasnt good
it was the opposite of good; all kinds of bad.

Anonymous said...

KILL IT!
KILL THE SLEEP!!!!!!!!!